It’s a hot and wet Friday night. I know where I stand. Do you? I look out my window and I see my place in the world. I did this alone. I step out of my home and sit on the grass. Rain drizzles above me. Mud forms below me. I build my house upon […]Read More Greetings from wonderland
You and I will never see things eye-to-eye We vibrate on different frequencies. So far the longest fight I have ever had to endure with you is this one. The one where I have completely given in to myself, and am now refusing to coddle you like the child that you are. You are no […]Read More A certain inflexibility in opinion.
My skin was canvas. Blank and free of blemish or defect of any kind. I wasn’t perfect, but I felt like I was, For a time. You loved me, So you made me your painting. My skin decorated with deep purples and blues that bled and faded into yellows and greens. Up my arms and […]Read More This is a Memory
It is far beyond me how some one can choose not to live, but rather to exist. Living, in itself, I believe, is a word that is very misunderstood. If you were to look up the word by definition, one of the first things that will come up is; 1. An income sufficient to live […]Read More A righteous amount of confusion.
It was one of the hottest Decembers I can remember. I woke up on Christmas morning, and you as usual where not there. I had woken up with a mixture of anxiety and depression. I knew in my heart I was only counting down the seconds, minutes, hours, for you to disappoint me. If there […]Read More It was at this very moment I knew…
post-trau·mat·ic stress dis·or·der noun Medicine noun: post-traumatic stress disorder; noun: posttraumatic stress disorder; noun: post-traumatic stress syndrome; noun: posttraumatic stress syndrome a condition of persistent mental and emotional stress occurring as a result of injury or severe psychological shock, typically involving disturbance of sleep and constant vivid recall of the experience, with dulled responses to […]Read More I’m just here TRYING to fucking cope with you people.
I see what you are doing. I know your works. Your tactics and strategies haven’t changed a bit. You continue to utilize human beings as a crutch and as an excuse for your own shortcomings. Shortcomings that you yourself will never seem to admit to. I want you to enjoy this brief moment of […]Read More an·a·lyt·i·cal
I don’t think I could ever fully express the amount of hate, resentment, pain, and regret I harbor in this little soul of mine because of you. I struggle everyday of my life trying to recover. Every time I feel I am getting closer to this emotional freedom I so desperately seek, the memory of your […]Read More Little witch bitch
All this time, I was saving my best for last. You were not the best, therefore you didn’t deserve to be my last. L. Martel 6-26-17Read More Word to the wise
At the time I was conflicted. An insurmountable amount of antagonism asphyxiated me. I was delirious then. A hollowed out shell of the human being I once was, barely any resemblance left of my once true form. Feeling defeated, I accepted my circumstance, supposing within myself that it was some how Gods will. I learned […]Read More I told you this would happen…