Greetings from wonderland 

It’s a hot and wet Friday night.  I know where I stand.  Do you? I look out my window and I see my place in the world. I did this alone. I step out of my home and sit on the grass.  Rain drizzles above me.  Mud forms below me.  I build my house upon […]

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This is a Memory

My skin was canvas. Blank and free of blemish or defect of any kind. I wasn’t perfect, but I felt like I was, For a time. You loved me, So you made me your painting. My skin decorated with deep purples and blues that bled and faded into yellows and greens. Up my arms and […]

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I’m just here TRYING to fucking cope with you people.

post-trau·mat·ic stress dis·or·der noun Medicine noun: post-traumatic stress disorder; noun: posttraumatic stress disorder; noun: post-traumatic stress syndrome; noun: posttraumatic stress syndrome a condition of persistent mental and emotional stress occurring as a result of injury or severe psychological shock, typically involving disturbance of sleep and constant vivid recall of the experience, with dulled responses to […]

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an·a·lyt·i·cal

​ I see what you are doing. I know your works. Your tactics and strategies haven’t changed a bit. You continue to utilize human beings as a crutch and as an excuse for your own shortcomings. Shortcomings that you yourself will never seem to admit to. I want you to enjoy this brief moment of […]

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Little witch bitch

I don’t think I could ever fully express the amount of hate, resentment, pain, and regret I harbor in this little soul of mine because of you. I struggle everyday of my life trying to recover. Every time I feel I am getting closer to this emotional freedom I so desperately seek, the memory of your […]

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I told you this would happen…

At the time I was conflicted. An insurmountable amount of antagonism asphyxiated me. I was delirious then. A hollowed out shell of the human being I once was, barely any resemblance left of my once true form. Feeling defeated, I accepted my circumstance, supposing within myself that it was some how Gods will. I learned […]

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